I have now been off of work officially for one week. I wasn’t sure if taking time off would really help but apparently it has!
- My fasting blood sugar has dropped 10-15 points — formerly pre-diabetic levels, now normal.
- I am actually getting 8-9 hours of sleep a night. Amazing. Not always the best sleep, but that’s certainly an improvement from before!
- Physically, there has been improvement in many areas regarding symptoms, how I’m feeling, etc.
This is all much to celebrate. However, I feel like I still have a long journey to go, as there are many other things that need healing and rest and recovery. I feel like I’m only 1% towards where I need to be.
In this process, I am learning what it means to rest and relax and do things that are enjoyable again. My life has been so out of whack for so long that this is actually a process of discovery for me. I’ve always had a hard time relaxing, so I’ve been scratching everything and starting from a blank page.
What was surprising this week were the two things that rose to the top of the list in terms of feeling relaxed and engaged at the same time.
1. Jigsaw puzzles.
I haven’t done these since I was a kid. I discovered I can spend hours doing a puzzle. Albert thinks it’s because I like to bring order out of chaos. I also like to look at all the colors and shapes and see how things fit together.
Daniel said, “I can’t even conceive how someone would find something like this enjoyable.”
Megan put two pieces together and said, “I did it! I did it! I found two pieces that fit together!”
Albert sat there and looked at me instead of the puzzle and said, “I want to be with my beautiful wife.”
Awww…. what a great family!
I made a new blog for fun and really enjoyed putting together icons. (I used some pre-design icons and modified them to fit my site.) It was a bit surprising how much I actually enjoyed this, as I haven’t done much design lately and maybe I’ve just forgotten what it’s like to do something with no timetable. I guess there was a reason I ended up being a graphic designer!
Over the years, my life has been dominated with what should get done — many of my responsibilities not really being in areas of strength or in tasks that really energize me. I suppose that’s one reason why I’m constantly tired.
In the meantime, I’ve gotten in touch with my introvert side, as being with people and being out and about exhausts me. It’s a bit odd for someone who has always loved being with people and lots of activity. But I find I don’t miss it, as it is too much for me these days.
God has been gracious through this season. There’s lots to learn and I really appreciate how so many have been praying. He is answering.